Doubt.

"We're not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be." - C.S. Lewis

"And how long it will take." That's my add-in on this perfect description of letting life unfold as it should. Yes, I'm impatient, extremely! I want it now, or I want to know whether or not I'm getting it eventually, and if I'm not, I want to dismiss and move forward. Like the Sailor. Or my job. Or life in general.

I made a change with my spiritual advisor. I'm really looking forward to developing this new relationship, when I have spoken with her over the past few months she has always had an air of peacefulness and happiness. I don't feel stressed or overwhelmed when I see or speak with her, this is a good thing;)I asked her yesterday and she has agreed to work with me, which is great, I have been feeling really discontent and not at ease. I need to keep moving forward with my spiritual development, no backward steps right now, and working with her will be another step in the right direction.

Lastly, I miss my friends. Lately I have been feeling like we haven't had time for one another, and they are my life lines to reality and love. They keep it real, remind me of what I deserve and what I'm accomplished at when I tend to forget, and are just wonderful people to be surrounded by. B is off on a romantic vacation with her future hubby in NZ (I am caring for her home and her pets, in fact), T has moved back to CO for an undetermined length of time, KJ and R are just busy with life(and their significant others), and LZ, well, she's just a busy lady all the time. I just miss them, I'm ready for some girl time this weekend, much needed!

Happy Friday!
xoxo,
Christina Marie